1 post tagged “watchment”
long day. too long. too much room for thought, and then i overthink everything. especially what matters.
i started twilight, hardcore, today. i wasn't expecting to be as addicted as i'm growing. i guess now i understand the edward cullen hype. i guess anyone would love to fall in love with someone who was their absolute ideal in looks, combined with someone who would love them unconditionally to the extent that they would overcome so much and love them so much as to not only step out of their comfort zone, but to want to pretty much defy who they are. i've heard people make fun of other people for falling in love with a fictional character like edward cullen, but last year i fell in love with alex from a clockwork orange, i can't really talk. haha. don't ask why, i have strange taste. but anyway, i like it more than i though it would and i'm already almost 200 pages in. everyone is right when they say that you read it fast. i started reading slaughterhouse five last night also. i suck with books, honestly. i just have too many interests, and then i don't read fast enough. there is so much i want to read. right now i'm reading twilight, slaughterhouse five, watchmen and the crucible. probably tomorrow i'll be starting a different book. i'm an ass.
anyway, i'm going to be honest right now and truly vent something sort of embarrassing but maybe slightly sweet. i've written before about how i have crushes and such, but today i sort of went a little out of my normal self. i was talking to this guy i like about books and stuff. we read the same things, except he finishes them, haha. we watch the same movies and that kind of thing. i haven't really met anyone who intrigued me to this degree in a while. he makes me want to read what i haven't read and watch what i haven't seen. maybe it's that he has more free time than me or just reads faster, i don't know, but i'm just finding myself liking him. while we were talking, he was telling me which books he was going to read next, and i hadn't heard of either of them. being the ass i am, i want him to think i'm smarter than i am and i looked them up, hehe. it sort of makes me feel dumb when he reads so much more than i do, but what i want is someone who can have appreciation for things other people write, and who i'll be able to actually have a conversation with about things that matter. i guess i'm stupid for pretending i know something i don't, but it's just a stupid thing i did. you don't meet someone as fanatical about kurt vonnegut as you everyday. i don't know if i'm a bad person for it or if i'm just human. he reads nietzsche too. how often do you meet someone in high school who reads the same philiosophers you do? i'm just inspired and intrigued by him, i don't know. it's what i need. i need to read so i can get ahead and become better at writing and comprehending so when it comes time for filming, i'll be set. am i wrong?
anyway, i'm going to be honest right now and truly vent something sort of embarrassing but maybe slightly sweet. i've written before about how i have crushes and such, but today i sort of went a little out of my normal self. i was talking to this guy i like about books and stuff. we read the same things, except he finishes them, haha. we watch the same movies and that kind of thing. i haven't really met anyone who intrigued me to this degree in a while. he makes me want to read what i haven't read and watch what i haven't seen. maybe it's that he has more free time than me or just reads faster, i don't know, but i'm just finding myself liking him. while we were talking, he was telling me which books he was going to read next, and i hadn't heard of either of them. being the ass i am, i want him to think i'm smarter than i am and i looked them up, hehe. it sort of makes me feel dumb when he reads so much more than i do, but what i want is someone who can have appreciation for things other people write, and who i'll be able to actually have a conversation with about things that matter. i guess i'm stupid for pretending i know something i don't, but it's just a stupid thing i did. you don't meet someone as fanatical about kurt vonnegut as you everyday. i don't know if i'm a bad person for it or if i'm just human. he reads nietzsche too. how often do you meet someone in high school who reads the same philiosophers you do? i'm just inspired and intrigued by him, i don't know. it's what i need. i need to read so i can get ahead and become better at writing and comprehending so when it comes time for filming, i'll be set. am i wrong?
