3 posts tagged “green”
<-- reporter style eco journal by heatherlea. THIS ITEM IS NOT MADE BY ME. i just thought maybe i should switch it up sometimes. show off some other cool things around etsy, and who doesn't like some free publicity. i think heatherlea's recycled paper notebooks and journals are so cool ! recycled paper is just so unique looking, and i sometimes prefer it to regular. (: hehe. but anyway, check her out at heatherlea.etsy.com !
i'm only 6 small sales away from being halfway to 100 ! i know i'll probably achieve that by the end of the year, but maybe not by the end of the summer. ): it's the unfortunate truth, but i really don't mind. i've been feeling a lot better about everything today. i made plans with friends next week and tomorrow i'm going to go see bon jovi in central park. :D and maybe attempt to semi- fix things with my dad, even though i might end up being too stubborn in the end. i have flaws, and i'm aware of them. i guess maybe sometimes i need to be the bigger person more often, but i did get my sister a present for her baby... and on etsy of course ! i got her this cute onesie by ellembee. she has a lot of cute ones but i got the elliott the giraffe one. (: hopefully my new nephew will like it. too bad it will fit him in three months rather than now, but who knows, he might be pretty big. i wish i knew, but i'm planning on going to visit them in august, whether they want it or not. since i'll be in town, why not? hehe.
but anyway, i'm going to cut it short because i want to get back to the july palaver. :D and by the way, i'm so depressed that i ran out of episodes of the office to watch ! i guess i need to move on to the british version. (;
i'm only 6 small sales away from being halfway to 100 ! i know i'll probably achieve that by the end of the year, but maybe not by the end of the summer. ): it's the unfortunate truth, but i really don't mind. i've been feeling a lot better about everything today. i made plans with friends next week and tomorrow i'm going to go see bon jovi in central park. :D and maybe attempt to semi- fix things with my dad, even though i might end up being too stubborn in the end. i have flaws, and i'm aware of them. i guess maybe sometimes i need to be the bigger person more often, but i did get my sister a present for her baby... and on etsy of course ! i got her this cute onesie by ellembee. she has a lot of cute ones but i got the elliott the giraffe one. (: hopefully my new nephew will like it. too bad it will fit him in three months rather than now, but who knows, he might be pretty big. i wish i knew, but i'm planning on going to visit them in august, whether they want it or not. since i'll be in town, why not? hehe.
but anyway, i'm going to cut it short because i want to get back to the july palaver. :D and by the way, i'm so depressed that i ran out of episodes of the office to watch ! i guess i need to move on to the british version. (;
i'm listening to devendra banhart. he's a genius of course, but i felt like i needed him more in my iTunes library. i can't believe how much mates of state i listened to last week ! i checked my lastfm and it was like, all mates of state-y ! the past two days i've been obsessively nonstop watching eternal sunshine precisely at 7PM. it made me think about writing in a journal, like joel, just cos you have the ability to be completely private and forget what you want forgotten. i'm not sure where this blog will go, but i'm not sure if having a written journal is any better, besides the fact i can doodle.
today was my first day working with my ap conference group in a few months. they showed me the powerpoint they made, and to be honest, i was unhappy with it. when i stayed after school today all i did was tediously work on that slideshow. it bothered me. i don't want it to make the wrong impression, but at the same time, i felt like an ass. i drove one partner out by just attacking her for plagiarism, but now i'm pretty much attacking this group for making an ugly powerpoint. i don't know if it's just that i suck at working in groups or just suck with people in general. whether i'm right or wrong, i'm going to run it by my partners first. i need to work on being considerate. but it does sound like i'm trying... right?
<-- new item just added to my etsy shop. hand-knit fingerless gloves, $6. so i've been pretty obsessively involved in my etsy shop as of late. i don't know if it's just that i need a distraction or i need money; probably both.
i currently have a terrible splitting headache that is making me want to explode. it's like my heart is beating hard and heavy inside my head but i can't get rid of it. i need to take an advil. i can feel my temperature rising too. too much stress for a school-free week i guess.
my relationship with my dad is shriveling up faster and faster it seems. it's quickening. we don't talk. he doesn't talk to me anymore. i don't know if i'm relieved or if i'm angry. i just don't really want to question it cos i know he hates me now. now that he's seen the horribleness of my grudge, and who could love that? i guess no one loves unconditionally. i know i sure as hell don't. but as the days go by i talk to him less and less. i talk less and less. i don't know if i'm growing or shrinking in mind and heart. i don't know if i'm turning antisocial or turning into who i should be. i guess it's sad when you've seen your parents as villains for so long, to finally accept them as humans who made a hell of a lot of mistakes. as i've said, i'm gradually trying to rid myself of my terrible amount of grudges, but when it's your parents who are supposed to be your guides and helpers through life, it's hard. i have two years left of this. hating my dad for being so passive and hating my mom for being so aggressive. i always say i don't hate, but sometimes i wonder if it's true. what is hate anyway?
today was pretty basic i guess. not much happened, except new listings on etsy. just babysitting for no money and trying to get publicity for my shop. i guess as my subconscious pain increases, the more i work. the more i strive to become financially independent from my parents. the more i craft, the more i study. i know my life isn't terrible. i'd never say i hated life as long as i am alive. shit happens, and shit has happened to me too many times. i'd never take my own life, but sometimes i just want to leave the place that is supposed to be my home. i miss my friends. i miss feeling like things would get better, or like things were/are okay. i can feel myself strengthening, or weakening. i can't tell, but whatever it is, it's taking over me. i wish i knew which one it was. next month i've decided to go vegan, just to test my strengths and see if i can do it. i'm tired of feeling out of control. i want and need to prove to myself that i have self-control.
i currently have a terrible splitting headache that is making me want to explode. it's like my heart is beating hard and heavy inside my head but i can't get rid of it. i need to take an advil. i can feel my temperature rising too. too much stress for a school-free week i guess.
my relationship with my dad is shriveling up faster and faster it seems. it's quickening. we don't talk. he doesn't talk to me anymore. i don't know if i'm relieved or if i'm angry. i just don't really want to question it cos i know he hates me now. now that he's seen the horribleness of my grudge, and who could love that? i guess no one loves unconditionally. i know i sure as hell don't. but as the days go by i talk to him less and less. i talk less and less. i don't know if i'm growing or shrinking in mind and heart. i don't know if i'm turning antisocial or turning into who i should be. i guess it's sad when you've seen your parents as villains for so long, to finally accept them as humans who made a hell of a lot of mistakes. as i've said, i'm gradually trying to rid myself of my terrible amount of grudges, but when it's your parents who are supposed to be your guides and helpers through life, it's hard. i have two years left of this. hating my dad for being so passive and hating my mom for being so aggressive. i always say i don't hate, but sometimes i wonder if it's true. what is hate anyway?
today was pretty basic i guess. not much happened, except new listings on etsy. just babysitting for no money and trying to get publicity for my shop. i guess as my subconscious pain increases, the more i work. the more i strive to become financially independent from my parents. the more i craft, the more i study. i know my life isn't terrible. i'd never say i hated life as long as i am alive. shit happens, and shit has happened to me too many times. i'd never take my own life, but sometimes i just want to leave the place that is supposed to be my home. i miss my friends. i miss feeling like things would get better, or like things were/are okay. i can feel myself strengthening, or weakening. i can't tell, but whatever it is, it's taking over me. i wish i knew which one it was. next month i've decided to go vegan, just to test my strengths and see if i can do it. i'm tired of feeling out of control. i want and need to prove to myself that i have self-control.
