14 posts tagged “exercise”
<-- taboo echarpe, $9. listed yesterday @ my etsy.
Wednesday, Jul 23rd, 2008 -- Take a chance and do something different today about your health. The Moon in your 6th House of Details now suggests that paying extra attention to little things can be very productive. Changing an aspect of your diet, trying a different form of exercise or altering one piece of your complex day could bring the impact you desire.
my horoscope is agreeing with me. i need to exercise today. i did a little yesterday. just a little, and i'm feeling the burn today, hehe. i like it. yesterday i did some very basic 'total body workout' moves, for like, 17 minutes. i must be really pathetic. but anyways, today i think i'm going to go out running. i walked yesterday for around an hour, but today i want to run and walk. i need to get my heart pumping, let out some aggression, and run until i can't feel my legs. i think i'm going to run every other day. i'll see if i feel something, or if it helps me mentally. i've heard of people running to relieve aggression, irritability and pain. maybe it will help me, but i want to do it alone. i'm unhappy that my mom wants to exercise with me because i want my runs to be personal. i don't want to wait for someone far behind, to be honest.
with only five days until shark week, i've decided to restart my quote book, again. although the two have nothing to do with each other, it's only fair, heheh. i am excited about both. i tried to have a quote book last year, but i found it difficult to be bringing it everywhere. i used a bigger sized book, and it was annoying to bring around. now, i've decided to use a moleskine notebook for it [like my idea book] so i know i'll be able to bring it around. small and versatile. and to ensure that i don't forget my moleskine notebooks anywhere ever again, i'm planning on buying a zipper pouch from the dainty squid [kaylah7.etsy.com] next week because her pouches are the ideal size for them ! sounds good to me. (:
and before i forget, i want to try this out. maybe i'll finally show up in the etsyowls blogring?
Wednesday, Jul 23rd, 2008 -- Take a chance and do something different today about your health. The Moon in your 6th House of Details now suggests that paying extra attention to little things can be very productive. Changing an aspect of your diet, trying a different form of exercise or altering one piece of your complex day could bring the impact you desire.
my horoscope is agreeing with me. i need to exercise today. i did a little yesterday. just a little, and i'm feeling the burn today, hehe. i like it. yesterday i did some very basic 'total body workout' moves, for like, 17 minutes. i must be really pathetic. but anyways, today i think i'm going to go out running. i walked yesterday for around an hour, but today i want to run and walk. i need to get my heart pumping, let out some aggression, and run until i can't feel my legs. i think i'm going to run every other day. i'll see if i feel something, or if it helps me mentally. i've heard of people running to relieve aggression, irritability and pain. maybe it will help me, but i want to do it alone. i'm unhappy that my mom wants to exercise with me because i want my runs to be personal. i don't want to wait for someone far behind, to be honest.
with only five days until shark week, i've decided to restart my quote book, again. although the two have nothing to do with each other, it's only fair, heheh. i am excited about both. i tried to have a quote book last year, but i found it difficult to be bringing it everywhere. i used a bigger sized book, and it was annoying to bring around. now, i've decided to use a moleskine notebook for it [like my idea book] so i know i'll be able to bring it around. small and versatile. and to ensure that i don't forget my moleskine notebooks anywhere ever again, i'm planning on buying a zipper pouch from the dainty squid [kaylah7.etsy.com] next week because her pouches are the ideal size for them ! sounds good to me. (:
and before i forget, i want to try this out. maybe i'll finally show up in the etsyowls blogring?
<-- currently reading. second chapter and i'm already addicted. it's about a socialite named grady, living in a flat in new york city. i really like it. (:
as i read this book, it's making me think of how fast summer has passed by and how little i've done in that time. no summer homework, not enough exercise, not enough crafting, not enough anything. i'm almost to 50 etsy sales, and i'm positive that by the end of the year i'll have 100, but i wish i could do better. i need to do better is more what i should be saying. i have so many books i've taken out of the library all summer and i've only read 1. i've read parts of 2 and am really reading the one i'm on now, but i want to have read at least 7 books by the end of the summer, and it shouldn't be as hard as it has been. i just need to bring my focus back to where it was in june. less flab, less fat in general. i'm just getting so worried that this summer is going by too quickly for me to keep up with it. i need to achieve more quicker or my life will pass me by so fast i won't even notice it going.
i'm cleaning out my room. essentially, getting rid of stuff and keeping what matters. i'm throwing away my past and living in the present, with the exception of some old journals, but that should be agreeable. i'm almost finished. i love redecorating, making my room more spacious and continuing to collage my ceiling. i'm becoming more and more agitated with everyday, and i'm seriously considering therapy. i just need a boost of some kind. everyone needs a lift, but nothing i used to do works anymore. i need more ideas. i remember having the biggest burst of happiness when i went vegan. the restriction made me realize my freedom, but i couldn't live that way. vegetarian is the life for me, and i'm living it, but i need something more. i need to sort things out and be sure of things i'm unsure of. i need someone to sort it out with that's used to that, you know? as much as writing can help, i just want to know if i'm seriously having a problem. i tire of things and people too easily and i fear it sometimes. people aggravate me, but what if i eventually end up with no people at all? i don't know. tonight i'm going to make an exercise plan and this time i'm going to put everything into it... or i should just kick myself in the ass.
as i read this book, it's making me think of how fast summer has passed by and how little i've done in that time. no summer homework, not enough exercise, not enough crafting, not enough anything. i'm almost to 50 etsy sales, and i'm positive that by the end of the year i'll have 100, but i wish i could do better. i need to do better is more what i should be saying. i have so many books i've taken out of the library all summer and i've only read 1. i've read parts of 2 and am really reading the one i'm on now, but i want to have read at least 7 books by the end of the summer, and it shouldn't be as hard as it has been. i just need to bring my focus back to where it was in june. less flab, less fat in general. i'm just getting so worried that this summer is going by too quickly for me to keep up with it. i need to achieve more quicker or my life will pass me by so fast i won't even notice it going.
i'm cleaning out my room. essentially, getting rid of stuff and keeping what matters. i'm throwing away my past and living in the present, with the exception of some old journals, but that should be agreeable. i'm almost finished. i love redecorating, making my room more spacious and continuing to collage my ceiling. i'm becoming more and more agitated with everyday, and i'm seriously considering therapy. i just need a boost of some kind. everyone needs a lift, but nothing i used to do works anymore. i need more ideas. i remember having the biggest burst of happiness when i went vegan. the restriction made me realize my freedom, but i couldn't live that way. vegetarian is the life for me, and i'm living it, but i need something more. i need to sort things out and be sure of things i'm unsure of. i need someone to sort it out with that's used to that, you know? as much as writing can help, i just want to know if i'm seriously having a problem. i tire of things and people too easily and i fear it sometimes. people aggravate me, but what if i eventually end up with no people at all? i don't know. tonight i'm going to make an exercise plan and this time i'm going to put everything into it... or i should just kick myself in the ass.
i must say, i always, always, always think of my best ideas at night ! night is just the time where i'm fully awake and fully alive. i think i've spoken of this theory before. i love night time, but that's besides the point.
so i made myself a 2008 goals list, for the rest of the year. some are mandatory, some i should attempt and some are optional. i'm going to try to achieve them all. here they are. if i'm missing any or you have a goal you think is cool and you think i should do [because of what you read here in this blog] then post it please ! i love goals and achieving them. :D
2008 Goals.
musts:
-learn to drive
-100 etsy sales
-write a list or paragraph everyday about the day
-blog 3-7 times a week
-map out new destinations to travel to
-get a job
-100 or more hours of community service
-gain more confidence
-eat more veggies
-work on communication skills
-attend 4-5 concerts
-redecorate [furniture-wise] my room
-write thank-you notes, whether to send them or not
-meditate daily
-bring canvas bags to the market when i shop for food
-take pictures of everything and anything
-read 15 books
optionals:
-convert all my favorite recipes to note cards
-figure out what to do with my hair
-fly a kite
-prepare all my meals for a week
-find a religion
-learn to play the accordion
-ride an elephant
-cut out snacking on unhealthy things for a month
-make a genuine effort to be nice to everyone everyday for a week
attempts:
-love myself
-get straight As
-read an entire book series that consists of more than 10 books
-read all of jane austen & kurt vonnegut's works
-take more risks
-flatten my belly
-run a mile in 7 minutes or less
-learn to ride a bike
so i made myself a 2008 goals list, for the rest of the year. some are mandatory, some i should attempt and some are optional. i'm going to try to achieve them all. here they are. if i'm missing any or you have a goal you think is cool and you think i should do [because of what you read here in this blog] then post it please ! i love goals and achieving them. :D
2008 Goals.
musts:
-learn to drive
-100 etsy sales
-write a list or paragraph everyday about the day
-blog 3-7 times a week
-map out new destinations to travel to
-get a job
-100 or more hours of community service
-gain more confidence
-eat more veggies
-work on communication skills
-attend 4-5 concerts
-redecorate [furniture-wise] my room
-write thank-you notes, whether to send them or not
-meditate daily
-bring canvas bags to the market when i shop for food
-take pictures of everything and anything
-read 15 books
optionals:
-convert all my favorite recipes to note cards
-figure out what to do with my hair
-fly a kite
-prepare all my meals for a week
-find a religion
-learn to play the accordion
-ride an elephant
-cut out snacking on unhealthy things for a month
-make a genuine effort to be nice to everyone everyday for a week
attempts:
-love myself
-get straight As
-read an entire book series that consists of more than 10 books
-read all of jane austen & kurt vonnegut's works
-take more risks
-flatten my belly
-run a mile in 7 minutes or less
-learn to ride a bike
<-- landin the linen scented gnome, $4. hopelandic. what does that mean? i don't know, but i guess i'd like to. i love when i'm in those moods where i could write for hours, and write well too. today i should've been walking to the post office, but then other things crossed my mind and came to my attention, so i decided to hand around for a little while. wednesday will be my first hardcore summer day, meaning, i need to wake up for a hardcore run. i either have the run around 6AM-ish, or 7PM-ish, just cos that's when my favorite shade of sky blue is out. i love when i can look at the sky and it's this pale blue feeling gray sort of color. it makes me thing of iceland, and i like it. that place calls to me everyday. every time one of their delightful musicians make their way into my headphones during a walk or during a sit, i just want to be there with them, experiencing what it is that makes iceland so mysteriously serene and beautiful. lately, they've even had problems within, but my want and need of iceland has not died, and hopefully will not. the people of iceland seem to love it as well, or else we'd have a high concentration of icelandic- americans rather than italian or irish, and who has seen that more than one to four times in their lives? me, never. people in iceland dwell there because they're happy there, it seems. whenever i listen to sigur ros, amiina, etc. i don't have to wonder why.
ideas have been popping into my mind all week ever since saturday. now that i'm sure i'm going to be going to the new york film academy [only for a week, but i will cherish it] for the first week of august, i want to make the most of the equipment and opportunity that will be available to me, to make something worthwhile and something as amazing as possible. something that can get me into some film festivals and that i can add to my college resume. but i have noticed a common pattern, that all my stories are of hopeless loves, or loves lost. i don't know why my mind is so magnetic to that topic. perhaps it's because i'm simply a hopeless romantic? but probably more simply, because that's my interest. i always seem to picture audrey tautou as all of my protagonist or supporting female roles ! she's like, all over my mind ! i must say, i think my mind and body yearns for me to purchase amelie as soon as possible ! hahha.
ideas have been popping into my mind all week ever since saturday. now that i'm sure i'm going to be going to the new york film academy [only for a week, but i will cherish it] for the first week of august, i want to make the most of the equipment and opportunity that will be available to me, to make something worthwhile and something as amazing as possible. something that can get me into some film festivals and that i can add to my college resume. but i have noticed a common pattern, that all my stories are of hopeless loves, or loves lost. i don't know why my mind is so magnetic to that topic. perhaps it's because i'm simply a hopeless romantic? but probably more simply, because that's my interest. i always seem to picture audrey tautou as all of my protagonist or supporting female roles ! she's like, all over my mind ! i must say, i think my mind and body yearns for me to purchase amelie as soon as possible ! hahha.
<-- beaming cellphone cozy, $6. made especially for the diyscene may theme ! available now on my etsy shop ! "are you a female young messiah for stowaways in dugouts? and are you what church folk mean by the good news pulling plastic bags off heads? or are you giving me a dirty look in the rear view clicking the button on your u-ha pen? don't pretend you don't see me coming around the bend on my fixi with the chopped corns turned in trailing behind your biodiesel bends. stalker's my whole style and if i get caught i'll deny, deny, deny." more of simeon's dilemma by why? (: hehe. i love it, love it. but i also have a new love of seabear ! since this totally cute finnish guy recommended them to me on lastfm. i don't like them just cos that cute guy recommended them to me, but also cos they are so amazingly good ! they are... a lot of the things i love about music. the melodies, cute lyrics. just all around fun, fun, fun. the reason why i love putting on my headphones in the morning and love wearing them all day, even when i'm not supposed to. i'd hate it if i was deaf; i just love music so much.
i'm having one of those shitty-ass days where i'm all, blah blah, whatever. i think i just need a huge-ass does of eternal sunshine to remind me that life is sunshine. i haven't been doing any goals. i have such seasonal depression. -___- i have to find some way to fight it off, and i guess that starts out with figuring out what makes me happy. i'm tired of being all depressed, ugh. things have just been pissing me off and stressing me out. today the media art honor society adviser teacher was stressing me out. i need a better outlet. today i went on a long walk to the post office. it was a walk/run and it made me realize how much of a weakling asshole i am. ever since i returned that richard simmons video i've been so out of it. i just bought it on ebay a few seconds ago. i need to go out running so much more often. i need to work out so much more. over the summer i want to get the fittest i've ever been, and with the help of all the techniques i learned from paul mckenna about eating right, exercising is the next step. i've also learned a lot in gym class this year, even though that might sound so weird. maybe if i look better i'll be happier.
i'm having one of those shitty-ass days where i'm all, blah blah, whatever. i think i just need a huge-ass does of eternal sunshine to remind me that life is sunshine. i haven't been doing any goals. i have such seasonal depression. -___- i have to find some way to fight it off, and i guess that starts out with figuring out what makes me happy. i'm tired of being all depressed, ugh. things have just been pissing me off and stressing me out. today the media art honor society adviser teacher was stressing me out. i need a better outlet. today i went on a long walk to the post office. it was a walk/run and it made me realize how much of a weakling asshole i am. ever since i returned that richard simmons video i've been so out of it. i just bought it on ebay a few seconds ago. i need to go out running so much more often. i need to work out so much more. over the summer i want to get the fittest i've ever been, and with the help of all the techniques i learned from paul mckenna about eating right, exercising is the next step. i've also learned a lot in gym class this year, even though that might sound so weird. maybe if i look better i'll be happier.
happy earth day ! i need to do something green today, but i don't know what. i'm having one of those self-doubt moments. i need to get off the computer. i need to focus on something elsewhere. i need to focus on what i'm making. so i did two exercise videos yesterday, and i don't feel worked out enough. i suppose while i was doing the videos it was burning, but i don't know if it was enough, but i can't imagine spending three or four hours working out rather than just two. now that i have days off, i need to work my ass out ! i need to get measuring tape or something so i can keep track on if i'm actually making any progress with this whole deal. i did yoga and a richard simmons tone & sweat video. soon i'm going to get buns of steal too. working, working, working it out.
i didn't fulfill all my yesterday goals. i traded '300' for bill murray's 'broken flowers' and i'm not sure how good of a choice that was, since i didn't love broken flowers as much as i thought i would. of course bill murray is always brilliant, but it just started to lack plot somewhere in there. i don't know when or why, but it just happened. i woke up with a stuffy nose, and that's not a good sign. allergies are back ! and it sucks. i have to finish my knitted purse as well. it's very cute and it'll fit your dvds and books, or at least it fit mine, but for you heavy readers, i'm not too sure. i didn't finish balzac and the little chinese seamstress either. basically yesterday was a trip to the thrift store and watching kids and doing almost nothing productive, which was bad. i haven't checked my horoscope in ages, but i did talk to an old friend yesterday, to whom i haven't spoke in at least a year or two. i tire of people so quickly and easily that i have so many old friends lying around, i guess, or people who hate my guts. either one will do. i don't know if it's worth it to make amends, just cos i don't even know how many people there are to make amends with. i guess a lot of the time i feel more like just living my life. i just want to be happy, but there are so many things out there that don't want you to be. i suppose i should try to not let them bother me, but i don't know, i guess i just let them get to me sometimes. like part of your heart was stolen and now it's been sent off into exile since they love someone else. it's so hard to watch people be happy at times, when you're not happy yourself. i need to work on that. i need to finish my book.
i didn't fulfill all my yesterday goals. i traded '300' for bill murray's 'broken flowers' and i'm not sure how good of a choice that was, since i didn't love broken flowers as much as i thought i would. of course bill murray is always brilliant, but it just started to lack plot somewhere in there. i don't know when or why, but it just happened. i woke up with a stuffy nose, and that's not a good sign. allergies are back ! and it sucks. i have to finish my knitted purse as well. it's very cute and it'll fit your dvds and books, or at least it fit mine, but for you heavy readers, i'm not too sure. i didn't finish balzac and the little chinese seamstress either. basically yesterday was a trip to the thrift store and watching kids and doing almost nothing productive, which was bad. i haven't checked my horoscope in ages, but i did talk to an old friend yesterday, to whom i haven't spoke in at least a year or two. i tire of people so quickly and easily that i have so many old friends lying around, i guess, or people who hate my guts. either one will do. i don't know if it's worth it to make amends, just cos i don't even know how many people there are to make amends with. i guess a lot of the time i feel more like just living my life. i just want to be happy, but there are so many things out there that don't want you to be. i suppose i should try to not let them bother me, but i don't know, i guess i just let them get to me sometimes. like part of your heart was stolen and now it's been sent off into exile since they love someone else. it's so hard to watch people be happy at times, when you're not happy yourself. i need to work on that. i need to finish my book.
<-- upcycled knit cellphone cozy, soon to be available in my etsy shop ! currently entered in an earth day etsyowls competition ! today i felt so much like going on a journey of sorts. i went to the library, and successfully returned a lot of films i'd taken out, and was okay with it since i'd watched them all for once. i got the richard simmons video i'd been working out with before that had given me a good work out, along with a yoga video because i want to work on my flexibility. my goals for this year are a flat stomach, ability to run a mile without stopping and ability to touch my toes without bending my knees, since i can't do that, even though it's very pathetic. added to that is definitely learning to ride a bike, if that can really be put in the same category. i have so many goals, i feel like every other word i say is either a goal or the word goal ! haha. i guess that's the cost of wanting to live a fulfilling life. but i'm almost done with the novel i'm reading, so i suppose i have time to open up my doors a little bit before i have to do hardcore AP test studying. i don't think i have any excuse to not get a perfect score, since i only have one AP test, whereas, many of my friends have two or three. i need to push myself harder, but i guess i can't really help being sort of stand-offish. i guess it's my nature, but i do need to change it.
about the journey aspect, i think i'm ready to watch every film i possibly can. whenever i knit, i want to be watching a film, but i also want to exercise daily and get good grades. i think all this means, is rationing computer time. less time here, more time elsewhere, where i'm needed or where i should be, but of course i'll need to constantly return to check my etsy and write here, in my blog, etc. i just really need to take a break from a lot of bullshit and i need to work out a lot more. i desperately feel the need to become an exercise-a-holic, hahaha. but exercise is a lot more fun and rewarding than i originally gave it credit for. but i really want to take up fencing, so i might.
about the journey aspect, i think i'm ready to watch every film i possibly can. whenever i knit, i want to be watching a film, but i also want to exercise daily and get good grades. i think all this means, is rationing computer time. less time here, more time elsewhere, where i'm needed or where i should be, but of course i'll need to constantly return to check my etsy and write here, in my blog, etc. i just really need to take a break from a lot of bullshit and i need to work out a lot more. i desperately feel the need to become an exercise-a-holic, hahaha. but exercise is a lot more fun and rewarding than i originally gave it credit for. but i really want to take up fencing, so i might.
<-- rainbow cellphone cozy, $6. now available in my etsy shop ! so many things have been running through my head on a daily basis and i haven't noticed them passing in and out; i regret it. so today was my second day of being all exercise-like and it felt good. i did an old richard simmons video for 'tone & sweat' it was cute, but i got a really great ab workout. i'm feeling a lot more confident. probably just cos i'm doing something for a change. it's a good and very positive change. i like it. i didn't have a run today, but i did have a power walk, so it was all good. my main goals are a flat stomach and the ability to run a mile without stopping. the second one sounds really pathetic, but i can't do it yet so it's time for me to eliminate the apostrophe and the "t."
i'm trying to live better, and trying to overcome my obstacles that are making me not follow what the way of the peaceful warrior preaches. i guess it sounds sort of stupid, but i'd just like to be completely comfortable where i am, and the sense of it that dan experiences in his journey seems to be the type i want. the one of the hardest things is 'the hardest people to love are the ones who need it most.' it means a lot to me that i put that into action, but it is also terribly hard to be civil and nice to anyone you despise, but i do love testing my strengths and testing myself in general as to how much i can handle, so it's all good. that about sums it up, so i'm going to go off and watch a film. (:
i'm trying to live better, and trying to overcome my obstacles that are making me not follow what the way of the peaceful warrior preaches. i guess it sounds sort of stupid, but i'd just like to be completely comfortable where i am, and the sense of it that dan experiences in his journey seems to be the type i want. the one of the hardest things is 'the hardest people to love are the ones who need it most.' it means a lot to me that i put that into action, but it is also terribly hard to be civil and nice to anyone you despise, but i do love testing my strengths and testing myself in general as to how much i can handle, so it's all good. that about sums it up, so i'm going to go off and watch a film. (:
yeah, this is my self- portrait of the week, hehe. i was contemplating for so long posting it, but it really sums up my last days of being vegan. yes, it's obnoxious, but it's me and today i felt confident enough to post it. so basically, the story behind this was the museum of natural history. i went last friday and they had all this food that looked so good ! pizza, chicken nuggets, donuts, wraps, salads with ranch dressing ! yum, fats ! but then, of course, i had to take the vegan road, so i ended up getting this vegetable pasta, non-meat couscous and broccoli. it was a good lunch, but i did hate watching everyone enjoy their meals more, hehe.
so today i went out running ! watching peaceful warrior really pumped me up. today i just feel a lot more serene and i like it. i feel more in tuned with my feelings and everything. i feel more active and happy. i hope everyday of this will make me calmer. i think that's one of my flaws; my over-enthusiasm or obnoxious nature. i dwell on things, i let things bother me, and i'm too loud at times. i don't know if that's something to love or loathe. all i know is i love just being back into a new goal. it makes me feel more complete. whenever i start achieving a goal i feel so much more complete and good about myself. maybe if i started a goal every week i'd always be happy.
after i watched peaceful warrior, pride & prejudice was on the oxygen network [yeah i know, i'm a loser who likes to watch the oxygen network sometimes] and i really liked it. of course, like most girls, i totally fell for mr. darcy, just cos he was so dedicated to his love. he did everything he could to help elizabeth and was so modest in professing his love. it's just what every girl wants i suppose. jane austen's character was just such an absolute ideal, but i suppose that is what happens whenever a woman writes a romance novel; one character will be their absolute ideal... it just sucks that it's so hard to find.
so today i went out running ! watching peaceful warrior really pumped me up. today i just feel a lot more serene and i like it. i feel more in tuned with my feelings and everything. i feel more active and happy. i hope everyday of this will make me calmer. i think that's one of my flaws; my over-enthusiasm or obnoxious nature. i dwell on things, i let things bother me, and i'm too loud at times. i don't know if that's something to love or loathe. all i know is i love just being back into a new goal. it makes me feel more complete. whenever i start achieving a goal i feel so much more complete and good about myself. maybe if i started a goal every week i'd always be happy.
after i watched peaceful warrior, pride & prejudice was on the oxygen network [yeah i know, i'm a loser who likes to watch the oxygen network sometimes] and i really liked it. of course, like most girls, i totally fell for mr. darcy, just cos he was so dedicated to his love. he did everything he could to help elizabeth and was so modest in professing his love. it's just what every girl wants i suppose. jane austen's character was just such an absolute ideal, but i suppose that is what happens whenever a woman writes a romance novel; one character will be their absolute ideal... it just sucks that it's so hard to find.
today i was kind of depressed, all day. i don't know if it's just the eating of sweets and meat, or the fact that i'm not feeling like myself... it's probably both. i guess i'm just so tired of the same old shit. i haven't been working at my goal, at all. i guess you feel a lot better about yourself when you have something to look forward to, or live up to, rather. i feel so rushed, constantly. always needing to be ahead of the game and it hurts. i don't know what's going on, but i feel like i'm depressed a lot lately, and it's not just today, it's almost always, well, except when i'm amongst people i actually care a lot about. i just hate the way some people treat me. it just feels pointless and annoying. i want to be free of this. i want to live a better life; a happier life. i want to leave my house and be free. i need to go on runs, walks. i need to work off all this belly fat i have, even though it isn't much. i don't think i'm far from having flat abs, but i suppose i just want them. i feel so stupid saying it, but i guess that's what i worry about now. i'm a teenage for christ's sakes. teenagers are notorious for having negative self-images and being moody assholes, and now i know i'm no exception, no matter how much i want to change the world. living would be so much easier, apathetically. you wouldn't care about other people, or what other people think, or making new friends; you'd only worry about you and how to get you where you need to go; but i'd never want that easy life. it sounds like crap. i suppose worrying is a lot better than not worrying. i guess my life is more worthwhile when i'm helping others, or having the intention to. i feel like i should make some revisions to my list. when i made it, i wasn't thinking as clearly as i am now. i was just sort of clicking on ideas. you can never be completely sure about anything ever, it seems.
i just need to be free. tomorrow i need to definitely put my new goal into action. i did do a bit of yoga today, but it was not enough. my arms and legs need working, and hopefully, if i run my whole body will be working. i'm going to try to really work at it, but chances are i'll probably slack again. i'm so busy this week, i guess. my sister wants to take me to steve & barry's and i have to mail a parcel. everything is just so jumbled up. i want to, and need to, be free of this. it feels so awful that i'm procrastinating this way. i feel like a failure, just two days after completing my vegan goal.
i just need to be free. tomorrow i need to definitely put my new goal into action. i did do a bit of yoga today, but it was not enough. my arms and legs need working, and hopefully, if i run my whole body will be working. i'm going to try to really work at it, but chances are i'll probably slack again. i'm so busy this week, i guess. my sister wants to take me to steve & barry's and i have to mail a parcel. everything is just so jumbled up. i want to, and need to, be free of this. it feels so awful that i'm procrastinating this way. i feel like a failure, just two days after completing my vegan goal.
