this is what it's like

i'm sort of beginning to accept the fact that i am, for the most part, in love. it's hard for me to completely let it sink in, but up to now i think it has. i've just never had this kind of chemistry with someone before... mixed with weird coincidences all over the place. it's just like, everytime we're together it's something new. we can talk for hours, and pretty much did last night. we're so similar and compliment each other so well, and i'm almost completely positive that he feels the same. i remember being slightly into him after we first really spoke, but it just gets more and more every time we're together. we have the most random, interesting, epic, incredible conversations. he gets me. it's just never been this much before. i've liked guys, i've thought i loved guys, but this is so much different. it's like we're meant to be together this time, and everything about us just matches. i'm just so excited, scared and overall happy. it's just the feeling that someone really understands who you are. it's prettty much all i ever wanted. he's all i ever wanted. someone i can talk to and respect who is also insanely lovable and sweet. our aspirations, interests and everything match. he wants to study abroad and go into the peace corps, like me. if that didn't win my respect, nothing would. it's just, i remember talking to my sister about the peace corps once. i was telling her maybe i'll find some guy in college who will go into the peace corps with me. she just laughed at me like, nah. i wasn't expecting that to happen, especially not this soon. i don't want to get too worked up about it, but i'm just so thrilled at how everything is playing out. we spent so much time together yesterday. at times when i'm with him, i feel like i don't care about anyone else in the world. the scary part is, sometimes i feel like he's all i need. i know that isn't at all justified, because there are so many people that i love and couldn't live without, but he is probably amongst the most amazing people i've ever met. he's so sincere and he makes me so happy. i just feel like there is no use looking around anymore while everything is right in front of me, completely obvious. we have all these random things in common that i can't talk to anyone else about. he's one of the only people i can talk about movies with. i'm just not used to having so much in common with anyone. i could go on about this whole thing forever. i'm just so excited to see where it takes me... or us. it's just something i've never felt before, and i'm so thrilled to be feeling. i just don't know how exactly we grew to be so much alike in such different environments. it all fascinates me to death. i really just want to hear every little thing he has to say. i love talking to him. all of it is just so much more than i ever thought i'd have, or deserved. i feel like i'm being rewarded in some way, for something. he's just... everything.