chance to even out the score
for some reason i felt the urge to post very early today. i don't know exactly why i need to post in the beginning of the day, but i suppose there is some reason for it, and i don't really care what it is, so yeah, here i am ! i guess i feel like i should accomplish a lot today? yeah, maybe that is it ! have you ever felt that feeling? like your idols are starting to lose their appeal, and like the world around you is crumbling beside you, like that coffee cake you can never quite put your fork on.. but once you take a bite of it, you realize maybe you shouldn't be eating that because you're trying to lose your muffin top, so you then run to your room, only to just keep getting hungrier, thinking of how good those crumbly pieces would taste in your mouth, so you go back and eat it, only to be disappointed in yourself that you did. that's not me anymore, but some of my idols are losing their appeal. maybe i should find new idols. i have my idol of mind, idol of body and then a various amount of free idols.
i had a long talk with my dad and my sister last night. it was about the peace corps. my dad was in the peace corps in the seventies, so since he knows i want to do it, whenever something about it vaguely comes up, he uses it as an excuse to tell me not to go to africa. my sister says, don't go to south america, because she has a huge grudge against hispanics, with reason though. the two continents i'd like to go to, actually, are south america and africa. what a coincidence, hm? at first i was set on going to peru on the peace corps, because i felt like i owed it to them. one of their own, even if not the brightest, gave me life, and i've been surrounded by so many negative peruvians that my sister has lost faith in the country as a whole, completely. because of this, i wanted to go to peru and repay my debts to them and give them help and aid and teach them whatever i can. then, came africa. i had absolutely no thought in going to africa until i saw 'peaceful warrior,' and nothing stuck in my head more, from the book or the film, than that one quote. "the hardest people to love are the ones who need it most." and then i thought, i should go to africa despite what my father says. i will probably have no other opportunity in my life to go there, so why not go there, hm? my dad is scared of the aids, of course, but i feel like i need to go there, like something is making me lean towards them, and i want to go. i suppose kenya or south africa would be sufficient, but who knows where everything will be politically by the time it's my chance. all i know is, i want to go to the peace corps in africa or south america.
so i have a lot of goals for today only. maybe it'd be nice to, since i have these days off, make goals in the morning so then i can live on the new day with meaning. so my goals for today are:
- finish the knitted purse i've been working on
- finish balzac & the little chinese seamstress
- do the yoga & the richard simmons videos i took out from the library
- write three essays for AP test practice, or go over unit 1 completely
and i suppose that's it. it's pretty much going to be a busy day in my own head, and although it's not a goal, i'd like to watch 300 tonight. i got it from the library, and i've been dying to see it with it's amazing cinematography, so i shall !
i had a long talk with my dad and my sister last night. it was about the peace corps. my dad was in the peace corps in the seventies, so since he knows i want to do it, whenever something about it vaguely comes up, he uses it as an excuse to tell me not to go to africa. my sister says, don't go to south america, because she has a huge grudge against hispanics, with reason though. the two continents i'd like to go to, actually, are south america and africa. what a coincidence, hm? at first i was set on going to peru on the peace corps, because i felt like i owed it to them. one of their own, even if not the brightest, gave me life, and i've been surrounded by so many negative peruvians that my sister has lost faith in the country as a whole, completely. because of this, i wanted to go to peru and repay my debts to them and give them help and aid and teach them whatever i can. then, came africa. i had absolutely no thought in going to africa until i saw 'peaceful warrior,' and nothing stuck in my head more, from the book or the film, than that one quote. "the hardest people to love are the ones who need it most." and then i thought, i should go to africa despite what my father says. i will probably have no other opportunity in my life to go there, so why not go there, hm? my dad is scared of the aids, of course, but i feel like i need to go there, like something is making me lean towards them, and i want to go. i suppose kenya or south africa would be sufficient, but who knows where everything will be politically by the time it's my chance. all i know is, i want to go to the peace corps in africa or south america.
so i have a lot of goals for today only. maybe it'd be nice to, since i have these days off, make goals in the morning so then i can live on the new day with meaning. so my goals for today are:
- finish the knitted purse i've been working on
- finish balzac & the little chinese seamstress
- do the yoga & the richard simmons videos i took out from the library
- write three essays for AP test practice, or go over unit 1 completely
and i suppose that's it. it's pretty much going to be a busy day in my own head, and although it's not a goal, i'd like to watch 300 tonight. i got it from the library, and i've been dying to see it with it's amazing cinematography, so i shall !
